One Monday morning I declared
Enough! Always being prepared
just meant I was passed over, snared.

I made momentum for us all
saving the team on each close call
picking and running each dropped ball
in the end no one seem to care

Then when bonus time came around
culmination didn't expound
I made less than the males I found
at which point my smile turned and glared

I should have known their platitude
were words of the cruel and crude
my worth was less than a dumb dude
I made a plan to make them scared

Next Monday I arrived buzzcut
pants, deep voice, fake beard, pronounced strut
came in chewing on a doughnut
 into the boss's office declared

"Enough of your "only boy's" club
I am top player, not a grub
pay me more or else you'll learn bub
how all your sexism will be bared"

And stumbling and sad he agreed
begrudgingly I, he could cede,
deserved more, but from scorn, he plead
any publicity be spared.

It felt like wrong lesson learned
So I took the money I earned
and I have never returned
found a new job,  am again haired.

drag king (noun)

Originally: a woman (esp. an entertainer) who wears clothing conventionally associated with men. Now chiefly: a performer (esp. a woman) who adopts an exaggerated or parodic masculine persona.

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momentum (noun)

If a process or movement gains momentum, it keeps developing or happening more quickly and keeps becoming less likely to stop.

In physics, momentum is the mass of a moving object multiplied by its speed in a particular direction.

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Culminate (verb)

of a celestial body : to reach its highest altitude

to rise to or form a summit, to reach the highest or a climactic or decisive point

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Platitude (noun)

a dull or trite remark

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Begrudgingly (adverb)

in an unwilling manner

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When life seemed to yaw left
I found all that was left was you
after all we've been through
The bruises I did accrue, my heart,
I have learned my part
this time when I depart it will
be a foray. Not still -
to a life I will fill.  Not fled,
discombobulated,
with too much left unsaid. I rise
rub the salt from my eyes
becoming true and wise takes tries
finally realize
To yaw allows more tries, to turn
from collapse, pull the stern
allow myself to learn my strength.

Yaw (verb)

to deviate from a straight course, as a ship

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Foray (noun)

a sudden or irregular invasion or attack for war or spoils : raid

an initial and often tentative attempt to do something in a new or different field or area of activity

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Discombobulate (verb)

to upset the composure of; disconcert [a usually humorous usage]

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In the debris of once 
great culture sit the dunce: the youth
what once was spoken truth now short
new laconic import turning
misunderstanding "delulu"
relationship status to "girlf"
honest completion "finito"
I'd like to veto my teen
but breviloquent scene escapes... me

debris (noun)

the pieces that are left after something has been destroyed

— sometimes used figuratively

things (such as broken pieces and old objects) that are lying where they fell or that have been left somewhere because they are not wanted

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Laconic (adjective)

using or involving the use of a minimum of words : concise to the point of seeming rude or mysterious

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Delulu (adjective)

in British English slang.  utterly mistaken or unrealistic in one’s ideas or expectations

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Girlf (noun)

colloquial (chiefly British). A girlfriend. Frequently with possessive adjective.

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Finito (adjective)

Slang.  done; completed

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Breviloquent (adjective)

speaking or expressed in a concise or terse style

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I was asked to encapsulate him
In a few words
And my first thought was
Hasn’t the cancer already done that?

The too large pills pulling
The him out of him
Tubes of some poisonous concoction
Regressed him backwards
Until all that was left was
Bald, wrinkled, and weak

Everything he taught me
Was autogamous
He didn’t even have to water
Thoughts sprung up from
Where his fingers traced my words

I don’t know how to talk
About losing my lodestar
Of being an intellectual progeny
Now adrift

How words can ever fill
The emptiness left?
But somehow even without his touch
Something still geminates

Encapsulate (verb)

to enclose in or as if in a capsule

epitomize, summarize

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concoction (noun)

something (such as a food or drink) that is made by mixing together different things

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Autogamous (adjective)

Self-fertilizing.

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Lodestar (noun)

something that serves as a guide or on which attention is fixed

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progeny (noun)

the immediate descendants of a person

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To be concise: within is doubt
From its core, despite pain, we sprout
From a soulless abyss we shout

Hello, I exist today here
Inside my heart is always fear
Each day I awake to all dear
And still manage to go about

Beyond this life is nothing more
That shakes me to my very core
Impaired from opening my door
but still I mentally bailout

What if all that matter is now
Camus was right to wisely vow
The daily toil the only how
To understand life inside doubt

Imagine Sisyphus happy
We schlep boulders forward, scrappy
Push up that hill, a bit sappy
Because without that we run out

Syllogism (noun)

a deductive scheme of a formal argument consisting of a major and a minor premise and a conclusion (as in “every virtue is laudable; kindness is a virtue; therefore kindness is laudable”)

a subtle, specious, or crafty argument

deductive reasoning

adjective: syllogistic

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Cockalane (noun)

An incoherent or rambling story.

A satire or lampoon.

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concise (adjective)

expressing much in few words; brief

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impair (verb)

to make (something) weaker or worse

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Schlep (verb)

to carry or lug

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The altercation began
in the usual manner
Hangry adults forgetting
corporate manners and tone.

Throwing aside sobersided
personas to reveal the years
of their accumulated rage
lost lunches, dirty coffee cups

Words once sweet were thrown as knives
goldilocks agreements torn
office equipment misused
partnerships threatened dissolved

Each retreated to their offices
until the manager arrived 
organic dolmas in her hand 
to applause of assembled staff.

We emerged stunned to serein
to wash each of us anew
to forget, return again
and remember to bring lunch.

altercation (noun)

a noisy argument between angry people

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Sobersided (adjective)

solemn in disposition or character

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Goldilocks (adjective)

having or producing an optimal balance usually between two extremes

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organic (adjective)

of food : grown or made without the use of artificial chemicals

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Dolma (noun)

a grape or cabbage leaf or another vegetable such as a pepper, stuffed and cooked with rice, meat, or herbs

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Serein (noun)

fine rain falling after sunset from a sky in which no clouds are visible

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What brings my soul out in dark night?
Fucate light

Lixiviate me, tears run clear
Rebuild revere

Breathe by breath abdicate impasse
Learn to touch grass

Too long staring through dirty glass
This night allows me to unclench
Release from life become stress drench
No fucate light.  Rebuild revere: learn to touch grass.

Lunation (noun)

the period of time from one new moon to the next

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Fucate (adjective)

Artificially colored.

Counterfeit; disguised; falsified.

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Lixiviate (verb)

To subject to a purifying or transforming influence.

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Abdicate (verb)

to renounce a throne, high office, dignity, or function

to relinquish (something, such as sovereign power) formally

to cast off : discard

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Resilience is not found on an adret
It's not the prerogative of the rich
The well-connected, proud, or beautiful
It arrives rough and worn from simple truth
I am in pain today, because I am 
alive, may the same be true tomorrow

resilience (noun)

the power or ability to return to the original form, position, etc., after being bent, compressed, or stretched; elasticity

ability to recover readily from illness, depression, adversity, or the like; buoyancy

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Adret (noun)

a side of a mountain receiving direct sunlight

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Prerogative (noun)

a right or privilege, one belonging to a particular person, group, or class of individuals

a distinctive excellence

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Things start in the usual manner
They always do
Some vertiginous prose
Over drinks, under candlelight
A pleasing disposition
A moment’s pause

Then, as these things always progress,
Microtransactions of love
Instantaneous proclamations
Higgly-piggly scribblings
Transmitted over wi-fi
“I had a good time
Let’s do that again”

Watching it unfold
Again
I want to fast-forward
To the end
There will be an end
There always is
Whether in anger or sorrow
Or just forgetfulness

But I pause
Rewind
Edit

Right 
It wasn’t over drinks, under candlelight
It was at my desk, washed in computer light
Update resume
Submit
Wait in silence for another rejection
To another job application

Vertiginous (adjective)

characterized by or suffering from vertigo or dizziness

inclined to frequent and often pointless change : inconstant

causing or tending to cause dizziness

marked by turning

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disposition (noun)

the usual attitude or mood of a person or animal, a tendency to act or think in a particular way

a tendency to develop a disease, condition, etc.

the act or power of officially or legally giving land, possessions, etc., to someone

the way things are placed or arranged — usually singular — often + of

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Microtransaction (noun)

a small online purchase, often for virtual items or features within a game or application

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higgledy-piggledy (adverb)

in a jumbled, confused, or disorderly manner

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"In our globalized industrial culture
your love is cromulent to love lock"
his billet-doux proclaimed, so I dumped him.

globalize (verb)

to make (something) cover, involve, or affect the entire world

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cromulent (adjective)

sufficient for the purpose; acceptable (often used humorously)

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love lock (noun)

A padlock attached to a bridge, railing, fence, etc., by a couple, as a symbol of their love for and commitment to one another

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billet-doux (noun)

a love letter

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