In the middle of the night yearnings come
Feeding fear, fed on besmirching remark
Pillows too hard, room cold
Awake morosely to dawn stark
The remainder of a party gone stale
Retreading comments now edged in blackmail
No eudemonic snark
Perhaps tomorrow instead I should learn to slum
yearning (noun)
deep or anxious longing, desire, etc.
Collins
Besmirch (verb)
To cause harm or damage to the purity, luster, or beauty of (something)
Merriam-Webster
Morosely (adverb)
in a morose manner (j/k)
do something in a sullen, moody way
vocabulary.com
Remainder (noun)
the part that is left when the other people or things are gone, used, etc.
Britannica
Eudemonic (adjective)
pertaining or conducive to happiness
Dictionary.com
Mistress Bradstreet stanza: 8 line stanza with syllable count: 10-10-6-8-10-10-6-12 and rhyme scheme: abcbddba
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